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Alevels & music

Hello lovely people!

Iv’e been desperate to write a post for a while, but i haven’t had the time. Sixth form is still exhausting, the last two weeks seem to have been particularly difficult for some reason. Chemistry is still a hell lesson, i am so behind and confused constantly it’s so frustrating, not to mention the fact that Butt Crack just seems to understand everything instantly and I’m sat next to her not even sure if our teacher is speaking in English. Other than chemistry, my other subjects are going pretty well, biology is quite hard work but i enjoy it and my class is so fun, I’m also so glad i chose to do geography, and Spanish is pretty fun.

I’m really trying to make grades mean less to me as i have a tendency to really obsess and put all of my self worth into test results, which is pretty awful when your getting D’s in Chemistry. I also focus a lot more on how badly i do rather than the things I’m doing well in. Like, i will very quickly get over the A in Geography or Biology, and just put it down to the test being easy. But then when i get a D or an E in Chemistry it really makes me miserable, it becomes all i can think of and it makes me feel like such a failure. Hopefully i can start actually learning and moving foreword from tests, and use that as motivation to do better next time, instead of letting it upset me and make me want to quit.

As you all know (and are probably very sick of hearing about), Ed Sheeran’s new album came out last week, it is sooooooo good! I love all of the songs so much, but my favorites are probably eraser, happier, hearts don’t break around here and castle on the hill. I can’t explain how much Ed Sheeran’s music means to me, I’ve been a massive fan for around 6 years now, and his music has helped me get through some really tough times. I’m so proud of how well he’s done, the first time i saw him live it was in a tiny venue in London and i was sat pretty far back and we were still so close, yet only a few years later he sold out Wembley Stadium three days in a row. I am so excited and grateful that i was lucky enough to get tickets to see him this May, i cannot wait to see what he does this time, he is the most incredible performer. Other news in music also, Halsey has said that she will be releasing an Album in June, which i can’t wait for either! and hopefully there will also be a new Melanie Martinez album before the end of the year!

This summer i am also really hoping to go to Reading festival with a few of my friends, the line up seems pretty good, and Halsey is going to be performing which i am very happy about since she had to cancel her set at Vfestival last year. It would be the first time i go camping at a music festival which is super exciting and it will be so much fun! I just need to find a way to make enough money to pay for the ticket! I know a lot of people think that i got to too many concerts and that I’m wasting my money, but honestly i find that concerts are the moments in my life where i feel at my happiest and most relaxed. Its so easy to forget about how all the small things that sit on my shoulders and weigh me down, while I’m belting out the lyrics to the songs that i relate to and that have a meaning to me. Its a feeling that i miss from the second i leave the venue. I love being able to escape from reality and be in a bubble of joy and excitement for those few hours.

Sorry this post is so random!

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X

 

 

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2016 

Hello!

So this post, although a bit overdue, is going to be reminiscing on the last year.

Overall I think that 2016 was a bit of a dodgy year for everyone, especially in regards to politics. Personally however, I think 2016 was decent, it definitely wasn’t the best year but looking back there are a lot of moments and memories that I will cherish forever.

In 2016 I was lucky enough to see quite a few concerts, music is a massive part of my life and I honestly don’t know what I would do without it. Being able to see the people behind the beautiful lyrics is amazing, their songs have made the painful moments more bearable and others have made the brilliant moments have an great soundtrack. I always have such a feeling of freedom during concerts, being able to scream along to every word, dance like a crazy person and just be the most care free I’ve ever been; all the while surrounded by people who feel exactly the same as me, it’s incredible. 

It’s so crazy to think that in 2016 I revised my butt off, sat my GCSE’s and got my results, that all seems like such a distant memory. I am still very pleased with my GCSE results and I’m so glad that all my revision payed off, I’m still not sure how I managed to pull of an A in maths though. GCSE’s were a rollercoaster of stress, but at the end of it I had the most wonderful night at my prom and a delightful extra long summer holiday, which definitely made all the revision worth it. I had such a wonderful summer and I spent a lot of it with my friends which was lovely, especially since many of us parted ways in September when some people went to different sixth forms. 

Obviously I also started sixth form in 2016, so far it’s just been extremely stressful. However there are a few perks- no more uniform is a pretty great one, free periods are also good fun, but having the option to leave the school grounds to get food, or just leave early if my lessons are done for the day, has got to be my favourite. I also made some new friends in 2016 as our classes are now much smaller, but also a mixture of all the forms (years 7-11 my lessons were almost exclusively a mixture of only 3 or 4 forms and there are 8 forms in total) so a lot of people I only knew of because I would walk past them every now and then, are people I see every day and spend a lot of time with, I think this has been quite nice as I think my year group as a whole, has become a lot closer.

I think a pretty big one is… I survived. There have been points during this year where I’ve felt like giving up, where things have fallen apart and where I’ve slipped back into bad ways of thinking. I know this is pretty obvious looking back at my posts throughout this year. I’m proud of making it this far, and actually being able to feel proud for getting here, there were so many moments where I was so unhappy that I honestly didn’t want to be alive anymore, but I got through it. I’ve gotten stronger and I think that I’ve gotten the voices under control a little bit more. 

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2017 I think has gotten off to a good start. I spent New Year with my family in Argentina and has such an amazing time, despite the humidity being at like 80% and my hair refusing to cooperate. Also I’m living for the return of Ed Sheeran, I haven’t been okay since he posted that bloody blue square on instagram, I LOVE the new singles and I cannot wait until March 3rd for the new album! 

I ALSO MANAGED TO GET PRESALE TICKETS TO SEE HIM IN CONCERT OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m going with my friend Abby who I went to see Ed Sheeran with in like June/July 2015, although this year we’re going to be standing which I’m beyond excited about. So far I’ve never been standing at an Ed Sheeran concert, but I think standing is going to be much more fun and the atmosphere is amazing in standing from what I’ve experienced at other concerts. This will be my 4th time seeing Ed Sheeran live, and I’m losing my mind, I cannot believe how lucky I was to manage to get tickets. I cannot explain how amazing he is live oh my god, I can already feel how amazing this new album is going to be, and I know me and Abby are going to be messes throughout; I say this because I literally sobbed when I heard ‘castle on the hill’. 

Sixth form is still a bit of a struggle, I’m drowning in homework and tests and revision, but I am really enjoying most of my subjects (bar chemistry which is a literal nightmare). I love that I get to but all of my energy into these subjects which I actually want to do, rather than spending hours worrying about maths or drama or English, when they are subjects that I have not interest in. I’m definitely struggling to get back into the rhythm of independent study etc… after Christmas, but I’m slowly getting there.

I am very sorry for the lack of posts (as usual), but things have been pretty hectic lately, but I am trying, and I really do want to keep blogging and hopefully I’ll start posting more regularly at some point.

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X

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He has risen

Hey!!!

This is just a quick lil post to say…

ED SHEERAN IS BACK IN BUISNESS AND I DONT THINK IVE FET JOY LIKE THIS IN YEARS. 

Is it gonna be called subtract or divide or is all of this social media stuff just to distract and then it’s not even gonna be maths related. Is he releasing a single or album on Friday… NOBODY KNOWS BUT IM SO DAMN EXCITED. 

I AM HYPED

ohhhhhh boy oh boy oh boy, my friends must be dreading this because they knowwwww the new song or album or whatever he releases is going to be all I talk about for at least 6 months. 

What a great start to 2017.

I hope you all had a lovely festive period and I hope 2017 is an amazing year for you all!! 

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X

P.S. I know I’ve been awful at posting, sorry! I don’t think I’ll ever really have a posting schedule as I’m always pretty busy, but I will try to post more often! 

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Vfest!

hello!

so as you may know, i went to Vfest on Saturday, Vfest is a big music festival run by Virgin, they have two locations and the acts switch for the second day. I went to Hylands Park in Chelmsford.

Since my Fred and his group were camping for the whole festival, i met up with them and spent the Saturday with them. I only knew Fred but luckily the rest of the group were really nice and friendly.

I got to the arena at about 10:30 and gates opened at 11:00, luckily the line for Saturday only people wasn’t very long, but i did end up getting absolutely  soaked. Once i was in the arena it took me two more hours to find Fred and his friends as they had to go in a massive line to get from the camp site to the arena, so while i was waiting i went for a walk around the area, the venue was amazing! there was a big carnival area with lots of rides and food stalls in the middle and then the different stages where off in different directions.

Once i found Fred and co we went to see Foxes, even though her set was about to begin we somehow got to around the third row from the barricade. She was amazing, and i knew more of the lyrics than i thought! Since she was playing at the MTV stage we staid in the same place to watch Zara Larson who was doing a set right after, she was also really good! The original plan had been to leave to watch Jess Glynne after Zara, but since we were, by this stage, in the second row we decided to stay as Troye Sivan was playing later on, and if we went to see Jess Glynne we would have ended up right at the back for Troye. In between Zara Larson and Troye  Sivan, Rick Astly did a set, despite only knowing one of his songs because its a meme (the dreaded ‘Rick roll’) I still enjoyed myself. Just before Troye Sivan these two kids in front of me and Fred gave us their space at the barrier as they were only waiting to see the person performing after, i was so happy and i am so thankful that they were so kind to let us in front; they must have heard me and Fred freaking out about Troye! Troye was obviously amazing, and being at the barrier was so much fun, I still can’t believe how close i was.

Next we went to see Sia, the crowd was enormous so we ended up pretty far back and since i am so short i could hardly see anything… Thank god for the massive screens! Since Sia keeps her face covered during shows, she had Maddie Zigler dancing on stage along with two other dancers, they all danced beautifully and it worked so well with Sia’s incredible voice. After Sia, Justin Bieber was playing, as he was the main headliner for the festival he had the longest set. Iv’e never really been much of a Bieber fan, about twenty minutes in, two of the girls in the group decided they were going to leave and go back to their tent as the crowd was so big and Justin wasn’t really sounding that great, i decided to go with them as i was so tired and i just wasn’t in the Bieber spirit. It took forever to get out of the crowd, but the girls were really nice and walked with me back to the pick up area.

Overall i had such an amazing time at Vfest and i really  hope to go to other festivals next year. There are rumors of Ed Sheeran headlining Glastonbury next year so… Obviously it was such a shame that Halsey had to cancel her set, but I’m sure she will be coming back to the UK at some point.

Also… i get my GCSE results the day after tomorrow and i am shitting myself.

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X

 

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Favourite bands/artists 


Hello!

It’s day 26 of the 39 day blogging challenge, this post is going to be about my favourite band and artists.

As mentioned in many posts, my all time favourite artist is Ed Sheeran; this has been a long standing obsession for over 3 years now. His songs are all so amazing and he has a beautiful voice. I have been to 3 Ed Sheeran concert so far, and I plan to go to many more.

Troye Sivan is also incredible and I have also been a big fan of his for around 3 years. I found him on YouTube when he did a cover of an Ed Sheeran song. It’s been amazing to see how far he’s come in only a few years, and I almost burst from joy and pride when I went to see him live a few months ago. 

Halsey is a recent obsession, I only started listening to her in January this year because so many people had been telling me to listen to her. Obviously I fell in love instantly and I’ve had badlands on repeat since. I was also incredibly lucky to see her in concert in Febuary, she was fantastic.

Twenty Øne Pilots are also up there for me, i think their songs and style is so original and I really like them. I am dying to see them live but sadly I don’t have any friends that live near me that share my love for TøP. 

Melanie Martinez is amazing, her style is also really original and she has an amazing voice. Crybaby is such a good album and I’ve been in love with her since Dollhouse came out really. I have been to see her in concert and she was incredible, and I’m so excited to be seeing her live again in November! 

Pierce the veil was at one point almost an unhealthy obsession, I listened to them a lot when I was dealing with depression and self harm, I found their music to be really helpful and it gave me a feeling of being less alone in my situation. I still listen to them now, and I really like their new album ‘Missadventures’… it was worth the four year wait. 

Alessia Cara has become a fave very very recently, I only downloaded her album ‘Know-it-all’ two weeks ago, to listen to on the drive to Spain. She has an amazing voice and her song are really good! There are a few songs on the album that I’m not so keen on, but the majority are soooooooo good! 

Chvrches is another band I have recently started listening to, their latest album ‘every open eye’ is amazing, and so is their previous ‘the bones of what you believe’. I’m really glad I listened to them.

Lastly… The 1975… I have a bit of a love hate relationship with The 1975, I like most of their music, but I feel like they are quite pretentious and refuse to accept that they are in fact a pop band. There is nothing wrong with pop music, and I feel like they sometimes belittle pop music. (This is just my opinion, please don’t get mad at me) 

There are obviously other artists that I listen to such as Bry, Fall out Boy, Sleeping with Sirens etc… But I didn’t want to make this super long. This list is mainly what I have been listening to recently.

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X

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My first concert 


Heyyyy!

It’s day 22 of the 20 day blogging challenge, so this post is going to be about the first concert I ever attended.

My first concert was an Ed Sheeran concert in October 2012, it was held at a small venue in Brighton and my mum took me. 

Because the venue was so small even being in seats we were really close to the stage. The opening act was Passanger, and I had no idea who he was, but later his song ‘Let Her Go’ became really well known, and I recognised it from the opening set. He was really good and still is!

Ed Sheeran was obviously incredible, I think he was touring for the album +/plus but he also did a few songs from his other EP ‘Songs I wrote with Amy’. 

Four years later I still remain a die hard fan and have seen Ed Sheeran live on 2 other occasions: the Multiply tour and a non tour Wembley show. And I plan to get tickets if he tours for his third album, which I cannot explain how excited I am for. 

Thank you for reading!

The small quiet one X 

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